Personal note:
My Nothing Generation
Having talked about the piece with several friends and colleagues in different fields of
the media, I came to the conclusion that my inspiration actually had a lot to do with the
generations I partly belong to. As a teenager, I had a strong urge for identity due to my
background.
I tried to be part of several sub-cultures like punk and new wave, but somehow
I could not assimilate: the beauty and harmony I'd discovered in nature and art just wouldn't
mix. As I tried to feel at home with my soul mates, I apparently wasn't ready for their
tribal behaviors and their hard cynicism, which seemed to have no bottom and no borders at
all.
Whenever I tried to go to new places, showed interest in 'other tribes'; I was surprised
with conservatism. When I first felt sheltered by starting to express my ambivalence with
tape art, my friends (who all played in bands) told me I would never get somewhere, as it was
no music at all. The connection failed, and besides my never-ending search for harmony and
truth in a confused environment, a decline took place within these subcultures themselves:
ideals were getting cheaper, becoming fashion trends.
But with the arrival of techno and house music in the early 90s, the dawning of a new generation
seemed to reveal itself and once again I tried to be absorbed. Somehow it didn't happen.
Having seen society change so rapidly, I couldn't disconnect my scepticism any longer which
was 'deadly' under the circumstances: somehow this generation lacked a political issue, wasn't
keen on discussing the what's and whey's of their time. This is why in Dutch this generation
is referred to as "Generatie Nix" which means 'Nothing Generation', which was derived from
'Generation X', the punk-wave of the 80s.
It's hard to describe what drives this generation. From the outside looking in, it appears
that there is no other goal than empty minded enjoying anything that your senses can pick up
on: video-graphics, wild design, outrageous sports and violent entertainment and of course:
designer-drugs like XTC.
But if you look further and add some perspective, you'll find that
the 'youngsters of today' may have some good reasons for this behavior. Every ideal they would
normally pick up from the preceding generations has already gone to smithereens: politics have
proven them that resistance is useless because controversial decisions will be taken no matter
what the odds are (e.g. nuclear warfare, environmental issues) and that democracy is merely a
waste of time and paper. Education won't lead to job-guarantees any longer, television and
the music-industry are Big Business, where talkshows are faked, heroes created.
Furthermore
the amount of information that must be consumed is enormous and mostly has little to do with
their true facts of life.
The result of this perception is a general indifference: What do I care?
If you don't bother
me, I won't bother you, just leave me alone in my small autistic world where I'm allowed to
be what I am (or at least explore it).